Thursday, December 6, 2012

The Time Has Come!

Everything has changed so quickly and I feel like it was just yesterday that I decided to put in my papers to serve a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. On September 19, 2012 I went to my mission preparation class with my best friend Quin Volpe. That night, after a little help from the Spirit and Quin, I decided that it was time for Julie Munson to become Sister Munson. I started work on my papers feverishly. My days were filled with doctor appointments, paperwork, and schoolwork. It was pretty intense. At the end of it I had been poked by needles nine times! Finally after working to have everything done and my papers off by October 16, 2012. 

Then came the waiting. I had heard all of the horror stories about waiting for your call to come and even watched several play out, so I tried to be as happy and light about it as possible. I didn't want to make it hard on myself so I worked hard to tell myself that it wasn't coming til at least three weeks later. That's when I was planning on looking for it. 

Then this day came. October 31, 2012. I'd been at school and I had told my mom to go and look at the mail right as I got into my car to drive home. I started driving while blasting my usual Ingrid Michaelson, A Fine Frenzy, and Joshua Radin not realizing that I'd left my phone on silent. I continued driving thinking that most likely my call didn't come since I hadn't heard from my mom. It was okay with me though. It had only been a little over two weeks and I was hoping it would come the next week for sure. I exited of the highway and then the thought hit me that my phone might be on silent. While driving *cough* I picked up my phone and checked my text messages. There staring me in the face was this picture! 
To my amazement, it had come! Needless to say I almost got in an accident right then and there. After I got control of myself I screamed the whole way home. (Which I guess means I didn't get control:) I opened soon thereafter. I had been called to serve in the Philadelphia Pennsylvania Mission! The craziest part is that I was to report on December 19, 2012!

I hadn't really put this altogether and looked at everything that has happened in the past couple of months, but doing this made me realize something. I am reporting to the MTC exactly 3 months after I decided to go on a mission. After I decided to go on a mission. Not after my papers were in. Not after I got my call. After I decided to go! Does anyone else see how crazy that is? How much of a whirlwind my life has been lately? 

But seriously who cares! I have the incredible opportunity to serve a mission for His true church on the Earth today. I have the opportunity to grow, change, and learn in a way that would never have been possible any other way. I am so incredibly excited! I know that this church is true. I know that my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, atoned for my sins that I might not suffer as He did. I know that without Him, I am nothing. I know that a mission is where the Lord needs me right now and that there are people in Pennsylvania who have been prepared by the Lord that a young, naive Utah girl might be able to touch their hearts and bring them home. I know that I have a lot to learn and that I still know so little, but I have faith that the Lord knows better than I the way that my life needs to play out. I am so grateful for the amazing privilege to have grown up in the covenant. I am so grateful for my family, friends, and leaders who helped to prepare me for this day. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. 

I am officially signing off for a year and a half. I'll definitely have to make time to write a blog post when I get home, but for now this is it! I leave in two weeks. Thanks to everyone who has read my Blog despite how terrible I am at updating it. Goodbye Utah! Pennsylvania here I come! 

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Let It Go!

Its amazing how stuck we can get on things. How deep hurts can be driven if we let them. But isn't that the key? We have the let ourselves stay hurt. Every time I'm hurt by someone I think of Elder Bednars talk about choosing to not be offended. He said, "To be offended is a choice we make; it is not a condition inflicted or imposed upon us by someone or something else."  (And Nothing Shall Offend Them October 2006 General Conference)  It can be so hard to choose not to be offended. To just move on. Especially when you want to be offended. When you want them to see that you're upset and hurt.

That also brings me back to something that my mom used to tell me when I would decide that I wanted to be unkind. She would hug me and tell me that she was sorry that I was hurt and then she would say "Its nice to be important but more important to be nice." I hated that saying sometimes. I also hated the saying that I've started using often. "Be big, don't belittle." Oh, joy.

But if I actually stop and listen to what the Spirit tells me, I know its the right thing to do. Sometimes it can be so hard though. So hard. That's when I have to pray with all my heart, since he knows how I feel. He knows exactly what is going on and exactly how to make me better for it. I will just have to do my best to be like Him.

There is this video called "Advice from Elder Busche" that you can find on Youtube. My favortie version is the one by ldsteencenter. In this talk by F Enzio Busche he gives a list of incredible advice. The advice he gives is depicted in the video. One of the lines he says is "If someone hurts you so much that your feelings seem to choke you, forgive and you will be free again." That line almost makes me cry every time. It really is better if we can learn to just LET IT GO! So that is what I am going to do. I am going to just LET IT GO!! And you should too. It certainly feels much better. :)

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Boy Letters #1

A new blog post! Are you not all just incredibly excited! So, I have two incredilble friends who created these posts where they wrote letters to boys. I thought it was amazing! I really like reading the posts and decided that I wanted to create some of my own, so here it goes!

Dear MBF,
I miss you like the dickens!
I'm so glad you like the Viper.
The color is absolutely incredible, is it not?
You are so amazing and I can't wait to hear from you.
I am trying to not be green, I promise.
And I am doing better.
Write me soon.

Dear IT,
I like your hair now.
I'm so glad that you put up with my antics.
You're the first one who really has.
Thanks for being there for me, even when that's a rough road.
Thanks for kicking my trash at connect 4.

You won the battle, not the war.
I demand a rematch!
I'll miss you. A lot.

Dear Agent
With a Death Wish,
Thanks for being such a great friend.
You have to admit that the Norwegian blade is pretty cool.
I'm so glad we decided to start beating on each other.
I can't wait to learn more of the song.
Sarcastically but
with Love,

Dear MTN,
Seriously, you are da best!
I love going and playing with you three.
You guys are seriously the best friends a Munson could ever have.
You're all getting so big.
You're such a blessing to me.

Dear Papi,
I love you so much!
How did I get someone like you?
You make me laugh more than anyone else.
I don't know what I would do without your love and guidance.
You are a worthy priesthood holder and the best dad a girl could ask for.
You work harder than anyone I know.
I have been so blessed!
I love you.

Dear guy
who ended up being
number 3 in the 1,2,3 game,
Please, could I actually marry you?
We would be awesome together.
And absolutely darling.
I just know it!

Dear CJC,
I miss you a lot!
I can't believe you are gone.
It's been what, three weeks or something?
It seriously seemed like you were never going to go.
You've already learned so much.
I can tell from the letters.
Thanks for being an
awesome friend!
I love ya.

Monday, February 20, 2012

L.A.M.D: Life After Missionary Departure

Jacob left last Wednesday. My best friend is officially gone for two years. In all reality I feel better than I thought I was going to. I miss him terribly and think about him almost as often as I think about eating food or finding a husband, but strangely enough it has not strangled the life out of me. If anything I am living at a faster pace and a more invigorated height than before.

For example, I just received two new callings in my awesome little singles ward. I am now the Ward Prayer Coordinator and the Relief Society Compassionate Service Leader. I'm still not really sure how to be the compassionate service leader in a singles ward since we don't really have any babies or death, but I am determined to figure it out! I have been much more outgoing with the smaller version of my ward now that it split and I have finally become okay with myself in no make-up! Yes, I know it took 20 years for it to happen but it did! I now can go places without make-up and not die where I stand. (Even if I am seen by cute boys.) I truly do believe that I am okay and someday I will find a boy that will think I am more than okay. I can't help but wonder, though, who he is and when in the world I will find him?

Another aspect of my life that is taking an unexpected twist is work. I am getting so that I can do drive-thru without having a panic attack or crying. Fantastic! Now just to get past the fear that still eats at me!

There are several rather cute boys in my singles ward. Despite the fact that I really am okay with being me, there is that nagging doubt that never seems to leave in the back of my head. If I'm okay, then why don't I date? At all?

Anyway, I won't let it get me down. No dating does not mean no happiness and it definitely doesn't mean that I don't have a lot to do in my ward to help people!

And to my dearest brother, Elder Munson, I love you and hope your mission is the best experience ever!

Friday, January 13, 2012

Looking back at 2011... Sort of....

Let's face it, I'm a terrible blogger. I would like to point out, however, that I am an avid journal writer. Most of the stuff I write in there is for me to read. The only time I want someone else to read it is when I'm dead. ;) So now its officially 2012. So perhaps a recap of 2011? Hmmm... yeah not really in the mood. Instead I think I'll talk about a random discovery I made.

My little brother of a little more than 19 years and one of my very best friends will be gone for two years. Is it terrible for me to imagine a ticking time-bomb clicking ominously whenever I think about him leaving? Be rest assured that I do not see him leaving as some terrible thing. He is going on a mission to serve the Lord. What an amazing experience for my bestest buddy?

I still can't help but hear the ticking, however.

You see, he curved a loneliness that had become more pronounced as I moved into my college years. College began, friends fell away (either because of moving, missions for most of the boys, marriage, or other means of just finding their own paths), my dad began working nights, my mom is always so busy, my sisters are busy. I don't know. Things were just lonely, which is a good thing in many ways one of them being that I learned how to stand on my own. Be my own person. And through it all Jacob has been there. Even though we have both been busy with various things we always had time for each other and it helped me to not feel so very alone.

I have a very loving Father in Heaven who knew that this was coming. He knew that I would be losing my best friend and that it would be extremely hard for me to just lose him suddenly. He has sent me tender mercies such as having us work different shifts during the day so that we didn't see each other much of the day, keeping us both busy with our own lives, and keeping him very preoccupied with a certain girl who is A.T.S. All of which have made it so that, though our relationship is as strong as ever, we have both had to learn to stand alone.

I have to wonder though. Who will be there to be my friend when he is gone? He still is the one who I spend time with when I have it. There are no boys... my girlfriends are so busy.... my family is busy. So what is to be done?

I suppose I will learn to stand even more on my own.

It will be a good thing though. Learning to be my own person can only bring me happiness and strength and it truly will be a good experience. He'll learn and grow and so will I. Perhaps that is the scariest part.. This part of my life is coming to a close. That of being kids under the same roof. Yeah, we've both been considered adults for a while but neither of us have moved out. For the time being we are all under one roof but this year is going to bring about a lot of change. There is no going back. There are wonderful things on the horizon, but I guess I am having a hard time turning my back on the things I am leaving behind. However, I intend to thrive and enjoy every single sunrise!

Monday, September 5, 2011

Our Deepest Fear

"Our Deepest Fear is not that we are inadequate,

Our deepest fear is that
We are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light,
Not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
Talented, and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the
Glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us;
it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others."

-Nelson Mandela

Enough said. Internalize it and it will change your life. It changed mine.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

The Acid in Man

I wrote this one day when I got bored in one of my classes. I wrote it in about twenty minutes so its a little random and rambling but hey, whatever. :) Enjoy!

The Acid in Man
You're the acid in man.
The hate and the enraged.
The change in me when I slip.
You crush me when I'm down
My heart left to rip and bleed.

"Darker than night"
doesn't exist but
When you're around
It festers in the foul mists .
You are the darkness
The emptiness
In the human soul.

Be gone Evil Spirit,
leave me alone
You make my heart
Achingly cold, Ice.
I can't find solitude.
After inviting you I weep.
For with you there is
No thing as tomorrow.

I don't want to see you
It's no wonder why
you're the heart of deception
the king of pain
the acid in sorrow
and the drive behind greed
The need to get gain.

You come and death follows
Slithering in you're wake.
Good things shrivel and die
If their foundations you shake.
You strike those who try to love you
and attempt to destroy those who don't.

You think you can reach me
You think that you can.
You know me well,
Clever King of Rascality, I ban
You and your minions forever.
You know me well
So you know that
There's no stopping me.
No, I cannot be dammed
There's a rainbow for me to walk on
And it's obliterating the dark.

You're the end of the world
But I'm reaching for the never-ending.
I'm in the essence of sky
And You can't break eternity.
So you'll fall, you'll fail.
There's no way to stand.
I'm far too tall when I sit in his hand.
You can try and fail again and again.
And I promise you will fail.
And standing in the light
Pure and completely true.
The righteous will rise
to utterly destroy you.

In the sphere of a perfection
Found through a sacrifice.
We'll be conquerors for
He payed the price.
Through us His light will shine
And He will rise from the end.
You will wallow in misery
Your permanent destiny to dread.
Your quest will be over.
Lost your power over men.
And in triumphant glory and victory
He Will Rise Again.